Fake It & Assumption!

Heart feel not so right this morning :

And YES I HATE THIS.....

People don't get the message behind this. People could be soo upset and you would never know because their hiding behind a smile..

You and your assumption. Sometimes I'm just to tired of this...yeah typically people will say this " ala mulut org, susah nk tutup..hati orang susah kita nk jangka"...but please dear, knowing me better than the other people you should not jump into something that you unsure and end up you feel uncomfortable out of nothing. To be true for quite sometimes, my heart been LOCKED by a piece of diamond that you can only can cut off by special tools...I had enough, I feel enough....

I only love you as my dearest friend...as I put in the hierarchy YOU as my bestest friend even I can't share everything with you as what I shared with my two GFs. 

Do you know sometimes I really wanna share it with you?...that friends for right ..sharing the stories, hiccups, sadness, loneliness, happiness, joy moments... but after 2nd times you attempt this, I have to think like 1000x to spill my thoughts, my feels....And when you did that, it's actually hurting me in silence.....So at the end I'll remains silence for a while for the best of us. How hurtful of doing this...but hope it helps..