Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Drama Queen VS Drama King


Brain keep on saying this :

Let’s admit it, we all had our drama queen moments.  It wasn’t funny then, at the heat of our emotional agony, but it sure looks funny looking back.  Some people’s pains seem more elegant, more laced with grace, while with others, it’s flamboyant and verging on hysterical.  I guess it’s the latter that’s loads more fun.  Sometimes we like to take our pain a little too seriously.

Just for fun, i was taking this one quiz out of no where just to fulfill my boredom. The result is : – I’m not a Drama Queen but just a Princess…good one!!!ahahah~

You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince)

You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments.
You know how to steal the spotlight...
And how to act out to get your way.
People around you know that you're good for a laugh.
But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone.
Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention.


Why do women love drama?

The answer is quite easy. Women CREATE drama simply to put men to the test. Women are attention-seekers in constant need of reassurance and affirmation that someone cares for them and wants to protect them. There is a correlation between the amount of drama a woman creates and the success of a relationship, based on these factors. The less women believe they are being cared for and protected (whether real or perceived), the more drama they create. In the realms of courtship and intimate relationships, women CONSTANTLY put men to the test with the use of comments, complaints, and DRAMA. Drama is employed by women to put people, often men, on the spot, by exploiting their emotional strengths and weaknesses to the breaking point. Women quickly judge how well men handle drama; this is when they determine how much patience, courage, will, passion, and other important characteristics are present or absent in a man.

Why are men so oblivious to this? There are two main reasons. First, it is all played out subconsciously, and second, we have been socially programmed through media, pop culture, and belief systems to become totally unaware of this fact. For women, drama separates the boys from the men. Some of us rise to the occasion, while others are clearly not up to the challenge and wither away like an undesirable species. In relationships, the more a man passes a woman's test, the more control and intimacy they achieve with their partner. Women want men who are in control of themselves, yet slightly out of control; a confident, independent individual who excels in different arenas of life. This is because women ultimately "surrender" themselves, to a certain extent, to a man who they believe to be "the one".

Here are some examples of how women employ drama, along with I.Q. (intimacy-query) test questions and comments:

"So, where are you taking me?" {wants sense of mystery/romance created for her}
"Can you do this for me...pleaseeeeee?" {test of a man's integrity}
"This place sucks!"
"I want this (clothing/food)." {anything impulsive}
"I am annoyed." {any extreme emotion}
"Those people are bothering me."
"I have a lot of guy friends." {testing waters of jealousy, insecurity}
"All girls are bitches...I don't have many female friends." {same as above, but w/hint of autonomy}
"Why are you looking at her?!" {test of loyalty through use of overt jealousy}
"This guy asked me out. He told me I'm hot/cute." {testing waters of jealousy, insecurity}
"Me and my girls are having a girls night out." {employing sense of mystery}
"I am going here instead." {sense of mystery w/ display of independence}
"Leave me alone!" {"I want to talk about something with you." Or, "Leave me alone."}
"I don't play games." {"I play games CONSTANTLY."}
"I'm not worried about guys...just focused on school/work." {diversions that are props or "fronts"}

All these techniques are a women's way of testing men to see if the man is jealous, insecure, overly-nice, manipulative, self-serving, spineless, or basically, worth their trouble. To a woman, the most UNATTRACTIVE thing in the world is INSECURITY in men. Why do you think nice guy's finish last? Because being nice, usually means, but not always, being insecure in one way or another. Women constantly test men's security. Since they already know they can seduce us with their bodies, they need not try this as a test, unless you passed all the others. Women are only attracted to men whom they seek intimacy with, men who are stern and in control of themselves, yet not jealous or controlling. It makes us irresistible.

Woman: "So, where are you taking me?"
Failed Answer: "Where do you want to go?"
Passed Answer: "It's a surprise."
Super-Seduction Pass: "Don't worry, you're going to LOVE it, and if you don't....too bad..." (with a slight smirk for a touch of humour)

Woman: "I want this (clothing/food)."
Failed Answer: "Anything you want." Or, "You're so demanding!"
Passed Answer: "Not now, but maybe later." Or, "So take some initiative and go get it."
Super-Seduction Pass: "Hey, nothing's for free in this world...what's in it for ME?"

Do you see the difference? The failed answers are either submissive or insecure responses. The normal passed answers are alright, but not necessarily good for creating attraction, ambiguity or indifference, all of which keep women interested (at least to the point where they will create more tests and drama). The super-seduction pass answers let the woman know you are in control, and if she wants something, she can give in to you. It creates mystery and tension, which, when used together, are VERY powerful and seductive tools.

The bottom line is, when it comes to dealing with a woman's drama, recognize it, and act accordingly- that is, be a MAN, not MANHANDLED.


Okey2, I will not be bias to this but actually all the facts stated above can be apply to BOY, MAN also a GUY!! Sometimes they can just be worst than ever…They act like they are strong, they says like they know every single things, they seems like they observing what surround them but yet they can simply show to be BLIND, DEAF and HEARTLESS (sometimes whining for nothing –EMO!!!) What inside them just an BIG ‘E’ –EGO!! Sorry dude, you are such a DRAMA KING!!

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
You know you wouldn't want it any other way


Can i be a drama queen sometimes?huhu~Interesting!;D

The Story of the Pencil & the Eraser


Heart read and said :

I saw this on my wallfeed yesterday, thanks to Sheryl Bito (my lovely cuppies maker). It's been a while since I read something as beautiful as this.


Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're   always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)


I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents and everyone who have sacrificed a part of their lives for us.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

New Chapter


Brain & Heart said :

Pheww…at last…bersatu jua adinda2 ku…Congrats my dearest Lee & Razin! Yeah of cos I know for sure you guys are having fun now in Singapore..HONEYMOONYING!!!;p

Here some pictures of the day..credited to aka my gf for snapping these as I mmg tak berkesempatan to snap as I one of the BRIDESMAID..diulangi BRIDESMAID…huhu~

From the day before till the day itself, I was taking care of this little bride to make sure everything is perfect for her. Kesimpulannya, dapat dek majlis kat bdk2 ni…sume jd EXPRESS!!! Sian si photog mengejar2nyer..but u rocks beb..thanks aref..ahaha~

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Bridesmaid yg setia okeh..ehehhe


P1070494 Najwa + me as the bridesmaids for the day ;P



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My gf and adinda Lee

Thanks to Najwa as being a great companion, Thanks to Motorians who came to the solemnization -special thanks to this one En.Senyum for his effort( siap berbaju melayu ikut tema plus with samping and songkok)..;D Thanks to Aref the photog yg sakit otak melayan kitaorg, Thanks to Syairah yg tak psl2 jadi our ‘transporter’ bak kata Aref..u guys really made my day…

Alhamdulillah, all went smoothly in beautiful mode…yes penat but its worth it rite dear!;D

Friday, October 15, 2010

Erlin & Razin


Synchronization of heart and brain said :





for the solemnization tomorrow!

p/s: nak dikisahkan tentang adinda2 nih, i can make a book how they met, fight, hatred, falling in love now yet going to be a soul partner for life…tggu next chapter la ye i story2…hikhik~

Di Saat Ku Mencintai Mu


Heart fall in love :

OK..tajuk takde kena mengena with what i heart right now…hikhik~

It just a song that mencuri hati di kala blogwalking and terpaksa read it from the coding itself tuk carik what song is that…credited to

(want to post it at FB, but then akan ada org2 yang terperasan menikam kalbu…payah nk menjawab..huhu)

Here we go…;D


Lirik : Dadali - Disaat Aku Mencintaimu

Mengapa kau pergi, Mengapa kau pergi

Di saat aku mulai mencintaimu,

berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku,

Malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku,

Menyendiri lagi, Menyendiri lagi,

Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi,

Tak pernah ada yang menhiasi hariku,

Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencintai dirimu,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta…….

Menyendiri lagi, Menyendiri lagi,

Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi,

Tak pernah ada yang menhiasi hariku,

Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencintai dirimu,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta…….

Semoga engkau kan mengerti,, tentang perasaan ini

Maaf ku telah terbuai, akan indahnya cinta

Maaf sungguhku tak bisa, untuk kembali padamu

Maaf ku telah terbuai, akan indahnya cinta

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku

Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta....


Sekian…heheh ;P

Thursday, October 14, 2010



Brain said :


5 wife 1 husband question will always linger around the connected neurons when we start to think.

Yes! Curiosity is killing me.

Bad Scene

Scenario 1

Why he need to do that? Showing off some personal thing, some “dirty words” in social networking?? Owh sangat the tak bijak thing to do. It showed you are so cheapskate dude. Not to judge you but that who you are. What are you trying to proof?You happy? You cool? Owh please as i know you in and out.

What you been doing just helping me by putting a big remark on my NO-NO checklist with a full tick on the check boxes. But still, I still respect you on behalf of being a homo sapiens who made me smile once upon a time.

You need to GROW UP! (as piawai SIRIM pun tak lepas ni..)


Scenario 2

Half an hour conversation, owh gosh…you spill out everything about yourself. I don’t buy any of your words babes as I’m NOT interested at all but yet I’m a good listener am I..

Do you need to tell me that and why you are telling me all those craps? I can be a good advisor but then you never know me at the first place. If given a day for you… i can be 100%ly sure i will know even your salah silah keluarga kot..from A-Z without an empty space to fill up.


Scenario 3

I hate pretender as I don’t pretend anymore. If I like it, you will see it. If I don’t like it, you will feel it.

Why you need to be such a hypocrite as I don’t even care what you want to do in your life. You are trapping yourself in your own darkness. Once you feel you tangled up in your own ropes, you tried to blame me as I’m the biggest enemies. What? Because all your secrets in my pocket? And whose fault is that?

I guess the name of Labu Labi and the ‘babuns’ are so you…You failed to be a good judges yet you hurting so much people. End up you feel isolated..don’t have to pin point at other people as it all comes from you, yourself.

You said we have no string attached but everyone can smell something fishy with your act and you know what? it make you looks so lame. Once you did that, I can make a total cut off, you are now INVISIBLE to me.

Please live your life with sincerity and loyalty not because you have a ‘contract’ on it!


Good Scene

Scenario 4

What do I feel right now? Why I feel at ease, relieved instead of feeling sad?

Owh dearest, GOD turunkan kasih sayangnyer to me by sending you..This is where the starting point i got to know my real FRIENDS. There we go with my Bidadari and Bidadara who are really precious to me.They helped untangle me from unseen ropes which make me almost drown to the deeper darkness.

Smsing like no others, gossiping, chitchatting, giggling that are my girls..Seeing my En.Senyum + En.Comel ..wah heaven for just seeing them smile without failed when they look at me. En.Pilot updating himself make me comfy and secured to have a friend like him(even I never meet him yet..).I’m giggling by myself when meeting and texting my En.PWC + peluang to my girls to ‘cuci mata’ also..eheh~ ;P And my. En.Matahari who always there for me even sometimes I hate him so much but he the one who love me the most!

I’m elated to have these people in my heart..^_^

Actually, all these big Q just came out ot of curiosity. But then I did found the answer for those questions. As what Abang Ijad always said to me…only me can fill in the blanks with the correct answers..Pheww…there you go…kalah jawab soklan SPM nih..ngee~


“You make me smile, You make me feel worthwhile,

You calm me down, You erase my frown..

Yes’s you!”

Wednesday, October 13, 2010



Brain said :

There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction.

I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with.

I can select what I can read and eat and study.

I can choose how I’m going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life — whether I will see them as curses or opportunities.

I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others.

And most of all, I can choose my thoughts.

Thought Playing Mode


Brain said :

Yes what i said in the previous post i can’t put in on denial as its all true. But yet with some of adjustment of neurons after a bit of time of seeking the true meaning behind all this…guess what i apprehended.. it do make me think WISER..

For myself

“The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren’t paying attention to before”. I did realized that I'm not being myself yet i keep on deceiving it in front of other people.Until one fine day, my En.Senyum knocked me out with his words which he is someone who really reserved guy and yet always smile but he can asked something that make me smile till today. Thanks dear for observing and I’d thankful for your care.

In another part make me think everyone of us is losing something precious to us.
Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again.
That’s part of what it means to be alive.
But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library.
And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards.
We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases.
In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library.

Plus, giving up doesn't mean you are weak.Sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go. ^_^



For family & friends

Dear Abah, Mak, lil bros ,GFs, En.Senyum, En.Pilot, En.PWC & fellow Motorians,

Thanks for the love, courage, strength, pain and suffer that make me for who I am today..
Answers that i have been looking all this while whispered by wind to make me understand the whole circumstances without any doubt anymore.

And I thankful my 2010 fulfill with new friends whom know become my REAL friends.




For a relationship

Need i say more ??..just read..;P



Monday, October 11, 2010

The Broken Heart


Heart said :


~See the smile on my face? I'll be fine :)~

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel.

Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever.

You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.

You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.

You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them.

And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them.

That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most.

And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial.

And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it.

And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that is there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter whom they are, because it hasn't happened to them.

And even if it has, every broken heart is different.

They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and every day now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.

And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's.

Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection.

And in the midst of all these tears, you know that it’s not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place.

After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going.

Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back.

Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t.

And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay.

So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it.

And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...


But these was so long time ago, I'll write later what BRAIN got to say..

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Mend It!


Brain insist to say this :


My type of Guy


Heart said :

My type of guy is someone I look up to; someone who I wish I could be.I don't think I could ever date someone I don't look up to, whether it is for his smarts, kindness, confidence, etc.

My type of guy would be someone I can be myself in front of. I want to be able to dance around in front of him, even if I don't know shit about dancing; I want to be able to sing in front of him, even if I may not be the best out of it; I want to be able to let my emotions run wild. I want to be able to do all of this without feeling embarrassed.


My type of guy would be someone who could accept me completely; the good and bad. Even if most people would think I'm a bitch or winey or weird or whatever people call me behind my back, I would want him overlook those things and let me be who I am

My type of guy would be someone who can be satisfied just being in each others presence. I'd want him to not feel awkward if we were just sitting in the car at the back of the seat with one of our parents.


My type of guy would be someone who pays some sort of attention to me. I've never been the girl who guys really pay that much attention to. I'd like to feel like someone actually thinks I'm smart or beautiful or sexy or whatever for once in my life (but not in a creepy stalker sort of way. I have my limits after all)


My type of guy would be someone I can cry my eyes out to without feeling embarrassed. Who can wipe away my tears and my running nose with his bare hands.tumblr_kv94bceFpi1qar8ujo1_500

I want to be the type of girl that can look past all of my guy's faults and love him just as he is no matter what stories people might tell me or how his personality is. I'll deal with the restraints he may want to put on me.


I want to be the type of girl who can tell what he's thinking. I want to be able to know when he's sad, know when he's angry so I can comfort him in whatever way possible.


I want to be the type of girl who he can be comfortable being himself with. I want him to be able to do stupid things with me; dance like a complete retard in public with me; cry his eyes out on my shoulder.


I want to be the type of girl who can make him feel complete, like the other half of him he's been searching for all of his life.


I want to be the type of girl who supports him all the way. If he wants to be a writer, I want to be making him coffee and snacks to get him through that last chapter. If he wants to be a football player, I want to be cheering him from the stands. If he wants to become an actor, I want to be clapping the loudest when he comes on stage. If he wants a be a mechanic, I want to be the one going to Petronas at three a.m. getting him oil or wrenches.


Maybe I'm just a dreamer with her head in the clouds. Maybe you guys think I'm setting my standards too high. Whatever the case, I want my future lover to know, whoever he might be, that I'll do everything I can to be the things I've mentioned above. All I ask in return is his love~

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Local + Guitar + Smile


Heart said : (Smiling..hati leh smile ke???dangg!!)

Yes2 I know this is the second post of videos in a row for tonight but can’t help it. So i post je harm!!

Dear GF,

I know u always read this…ENJOY IT!!!.. as i know its a part of ur chinta hati also..;P



Wish I can have one BF like this who can sing lullaby to me…owh melt..lots of HUGS & KISSES!! ( huu….berangan!!! ;P)

Just The Way You Are


Brain said :

Something is making me SMILE right this..I know you been listening the song in English but try to listen to this..just found out the Malay version of it and I just so in love with cinematography of this video.. ( ke with the NIK IRFAN?oopsssy ;P)


Ok2…addition to this…another song…yes, cheeky!!…mmg the flow cam bengong skit but the song up to the beat!!! Who this Caprice…???


Just be the way you are as people loves to see who you are peeps!! ;D

Alive & Glad


Brain + Heart said :

Ok2…so dusty this ker?tak nampak pun..;P

Heyya, its been a while i didn’t type something in here (well, sbnrya dasar kemalasan yg agak kronik) +  keep bzing myself up. Transformation in progress..;D

Guess what?I’m still alive!!!Pheww..thought is gonna be so tough but yet never have a guts to feel its gonna be so rejuvenating…yeayy..n i’m GLAD yo…

Just read this nice quote which are so true :

“ Someday we’ll forget the hurt, the reason we cried and who cause us pain. We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge. But letting things unfold in their own way and own time.

After all, what matter is not the first but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race.


October giving me such a good feels and a good start. Here are some of what I’m up to till lupa to my dearest bloggy..;P


Serenity Spa we go..heaven!! Even though it just a facial treatment (we were fashionably late…sorry ya buk..ahahah~)but it was so relaxing plus with the heavy raining outside. My dearest companion pun layan je..Sempat shops for baju kurung lagi which so fast & furious – mode sbb dah lambat masuk ofis balik..ahahah~


SDCC – Sime Darby Open House

Got to meet my En.PWC for the first time after 2 years terpisah kononnyer..huhu~ Friends since i was just PNB Trainee and he still in Auckland finishing his studies but we never failed to keep in touch. And this date he had to be my partner..;P + first time he saw me in “baju kurung”..goshh..

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Luncheon with dearest GFs celebrating another gf’s birthday + walk of fame (gara2 of one my beautiful gurl ..;P) gossiping, giggling, having so much fun that are so US..

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Chillies & Italiannies , EMPIRE GALLERY

My En.PWC’s birthday been celebrated by 3 gorgeous gurls which make him non stop saying thanks…- plan were made very2 the last minute and my gfs were the coolest people who made the day joyful and sampai sakit tulang pipi okeyh..;D

p/s to En.PWC : Hope so u tak serik joining us…ahahah~these is what the compilation of Motorians gurls  ;P


Okey, enough of Empire …sorry dear gf, seems I taken your takhta plak as ‘Miss Empire’ then our LUNCH for today was at PELITA!!!! Lepak kedai mamak pun layan jugak…;D


p/s : i think i’m gaining weight because of these EATING…as what a gf said “tolak kayu, batu & besi…all we lanyak!